The goosebump-inducing feeling of Ben combing his fingers through her hair, occasionally brushing against the soft fur of her ears, would have sent her purring if she wasn't already. Ben turning to bury his face in the bedding brings a concerned furrow to Sadie's brow and she rolls over slightly too, positioning herself so that she could rest her forehead against the back of Ben's shoulder. Continuing to run her hands lightly across his back and arms, Sadie presses a kiss to the bare skin of his back.
"It'll be alright, we've already got ideas on the clothes front and at least it hasn't happened all at once like last time."
As he feels her shifting to roll towards him, Benjiro lifts his arm at her middle to open space and raises his other hand to avoid catching his fingers in her hair. The weight of her head at his shoulder stalls the increase of the tone in his muscles, his arm curling in against her back once she settles to hold her close. It is the kiss at his skin and the soothing touch of her hand sliding over his back and arms that prompts that tension to recede.
Benjiro turns his head towards the side where she lies to speak, voice accompanied by a bitter note as he laments the perceived loss of an opportunity, “The rate is much slower, and while that much is in my favor...the timing couldn’t be worse. I was really wanting to ask you tonight...”
At Ben's movement, Sadie shifts from resting her cheek against Ben's back to rest her chin there so that she could look at his face more easily, head tilted slightly as she regards him curiously, her ears following suit.
"What did you want to ask me?" She continues to run her hands over him, "I'm sure you growing again won't change whatever it is you wanted to ask."
While unable to see the precise detail of her face looking to her from the corner of his eye, her ears more than communicate her curiosity in conjunction with her voice.
“I um...” he starts only to sigh at the hesitation with eyes closing briefly. A second breath drawn slowly, Benjiro tries again as a hint of color rises across his cheekbones, “If I’m growing again, I’ll be too heavy soon enough... But I had wanted to ask if you would consider taking the next step with me. Physically. If um...if maybe you would want to have sex together.”
Sadie freezes in complete and utter shock. Ben wanted to have sex with her. She never would have been able to predict that that was what her wanted to ask her, and for him to ask at this particular stage in their relationship too... Awe, and delight, and pride, and love. All the emotions feel like they are about to burst out from Sadie's chest and the only way she can possibly respond is by beaming at Ben.
"Oh Ben... I would love nothing more! Oh my god!" She She squeels happily, hiding her face into his shoulder still beaming away before looking up, smile fading slightly in confusion, "... What do you mean you'll be too heavy?"
His rueful expression lifts as Sadie lights up like sunshine itself. Her beautiful smile, her positive reception to the proposal in so many words, and that cute squeal she tries to cover against him...all of those amount to one wonderful panacea for his worry. It even revives a soft smile at his lips as he gives her a gentle squeeze with his arm.
When she asks for him to explain what seems like an obvious obstacle, he starts to become a little confused himself, “It’s just that I’m heavy for my size as I am now, and if I’m on top of you after that compounds, it might hurt you...”
Now Sadie understands, and she is still amazed at how lucky she is to have Ben as her partner, "Oh Ben, that is really very considerate of you..."
But she is also, maybe, a tiny bit amused that Ben, the smartest person she has ever met, has seemingly missed out on the most simple of solutions. Sadie bites her lip as her ears wiggle. She won't laugh at Ben, this was a serious moment of vulnerability from her boyfriend. And yet...
A giggle slips from Sadie's lips, followed by an inelegant snort as Sadie descends into giggles, face hidden in his shoulder,
"I can go on top!" Her muffled words are just about understandable as she laughs.
Her initial response lets him know she understands. With that comprehension comes something he did not expect, and as she breaks into a fit of giggles punctuated by the harsh inhale, Benjiro raises his head trying to look at her better with a blank sort of expression as that redness at his cheeks becomes more pronounced.
Then...she corrects his assumption in words he can barely make out.
Benjiro had never appreciated the simple gesture of a kiss as more than the pressing of faces together at the mouths. Yet, Sadie has shown him over their months as a couple precisely how intricate the intimate touch can truly be. His knowledge of things beyond kissing had been even more barren, so what little he knows of the interpersonal connection born from intercourse is barely more than a vague concept.
He stares as she laughs against his shoulder, then he remembers when she had been on top of him at the junkyard. A handful of seconds pass without breathing as his entire face alights with heat that stretches all the way over his ears and down his neck. Benjiro tucks his head as he shrinks where he lies and pulls a nearby pillow over his head.
Ben hiding his face just renews Sadie's giggles, even as she tugs the pillow, "Oh darling, I'm sorry, I shouldn't laugh. It really is very sweet that you are looking out for me. Please take the pillow off of your face."
One arm over the pillow sufficiently weighs it down enough that the tugs from Sadie are not enough to budge it. Muffled by the same pillow, he answers, “If it’s all the same to you, I think I’ll stay under it until next year.”
He’s simply too embarrassed to look at her, especially while the blush is still burning so hot in his face.
Tugging at the pillow proving unsuccessful, Sadie flops back on top of Ben still giggling,
"I like to think I'm fairly creative but I think even I'd struggle to come up with a way for us to have sex if you trap yourself in pillow prison for a year."
Sadie kisses the back of Ben's neck, further adjusting her position so that she was now lying completely on Ben's back, her legs straddling his sides, as the giggles finally die down.
"Well we can't let that stand," She purrs loudly as she kisses his neck once more, "I will be a far more thorough teacher than those I can assure you."
His muscles jump under his skin at the pleasant kiss to his neck, and it sends a chill along his back under the warmth of her body. Benjiro feels her comforting weight on his back as she fully situates herself there, purr rumbling through the contact, and a second kiss to his neck is met with a shudder in his shoulders.
Slowly, he drags the pillow off from over his head, face still beet red, but his expression less shamed and even a slight smile hiding behind his loosely crossed arms, “...perhaps rehabilitation is preferable to a sentencing for a first time offender.”
Sadie will never get tired of being able to feel the way Ben responses to her touches and she places a third kiss on his nape just because she can and she can feel how much Ben enjoys it which is what makes the act most worthwhile.
"I suppose we could rehabilitate... Though it isn't as embarrassing as my first offence," Sadie blushes deep red at the remembered embarrassment, "Nayreen asked to use a rabbit when we were being intimate, and I just remember feeling horrified and telling her 'Fuck no, I don't want something with such big teeth down there,it might bite me!'. She was talking about the vibrator not the animal... I don't think she stopped laughing about that for a month."
Although the third kiss stirs a less vigorous response from his muscles, it urges him into a slow stretch after as Benjiro settles more comfortably for it. Something about how she kisses his neck sparks his nervous system in the most wonderful way, and it is quite effective in further subduing his lingering embarrassment.
Head turning further to one side as he listens to Sadie share a blunder of her own, Benjiro shows his teeth as he lets out a breathy chuckle. It’s enough to shake Sadie on his back, quiet as it may be. Turning an arm to bring his hand down, he reaches to find her fingers with his to touch lightly, “I had no idea what it was called either until you told me... So that’s a less basic error, but still funny. ...thanks.”
Sadie laughs in tandem with Ben, his laughter shaking her on her back and a sure sign that he is feeling better about the whole situation.
"You're always welcome, Ben, and I am so, so, so excited to share this experience with you," Grasping his hand, Sadie cards her free hand gently through his hair, "I will need to book up a doctor's appointment before we do anything though, I'll need to get my prescription sorted."
Fingers curling with hers, Benjiro feels his cheeks warm slightly for a very different reason than before as she expresses her anticipation. The feeling of her fingers in his hair is leaned into, and he nods once at the mention of the doctor. That much he understands.
“We can wait however long is best. I want it to be a night without any worry,” he replies. After a moment, a thoughtful look crosses his face, “ Two things... One, should I have a screen done? I haven’t been active, but I can’t promise my parents would have told me if I could be a carrier... And two, it might be wise if I track my changes. Maybe measure my height and my arms. That way, I can anticipate if my strength is increasing as well.” And thus protect Sadie by training as he grows.
Sadie nods, her chin nudging against Ben's back as she does so, "That's a good idea, I can go with you if you want, I haven't been checked since just before Nayreen and I broke up so I should probably get myself checked out too. And I'll be more than happy to help you track your changes if that's what you want to do. How often do you want to check?" She asks, pulling up her mental calendar to start fitting it in around all the other commitments they both have.
"Any nights with you are nights without worry, it's why I sleep so peacefully. I almost never dream about the memory I got with my claws any more."
“I’d prefer to go with you,” he readily admits with a little squeeze to her hand considering the visit would be entirely out of his realm of experience, and that Sadie would like to have a screen anyway.
In regards to monitoring the effects of his recent Echoes, he shifts in a slight roll towards one side to position where he can see Sadie over his shoulder, “If you wouldn’t mind, it would be easier with your assistance. Maybe once a week? It might be more often than necessary given how long this much has taken, but having a regular data point collection would be a comfort.”
Then, Sadie expresses her confidence in him, and a slow smile draws over his lips as he feels humbled by her words. She feels safe with him. “大事にしたい...” he says softly, then speaks on, “You should be able to sleep peacefully. And I certainly sleep more when you’re beside me.” He has quite a habit of losing sleep in favor of thinking.
"Then we'll go together," She reassures him, shifting as Ben moves so as not to topple off of his back, "Once a week should work well, we can do it at mine if you'd like? Now Mum and Dad know it'll raise less questions and once Mum notices that you're growing, she'll probably want to keep an eye on your joints."
Sadie snorts into his shoulder, "Well I'm glad that that's become an unexpected benefit of us sharing a bed. You know I thought you were some sort of insomniac when we first met because of how tired you always looked right?"
Careful not to force Sadie to compensate too much, Benjiro releases her hand and eases slowly back into laying fully prone to allow her to return onto his back should she choose, and he responds in agreement, “That sounds like the safer option. I have my height from the summer and after October recorded, so at least we have something of a baseline.” If an incomplete one. Should her mother insist on monitoring his joint health through the process, he won’t refuse.
Benjiro raises a brow at her insightful assessment, “That obvious, huh?” he says before he simply chuckles and crosses his arms under his head to get more comfortable. Doing so however brings one hand onto the upper portion of his other arm, and the feeling of it, makes him realize something else as he uncurls them almost immediately. Height may not be the primary factor to force him to change out his wardrobe in the coming months.
“I know that you discarded the receipts from Christmas but we might want to make use of that nice formal outfit you bought me sooner rather than later.” To demonstrate his point, he slides one arm out to the side and makes an effort to curl his arm, which makes his biceps noticeably more prominent than had been visible last month. Regrettable as the short lifespan of those clothes might prove to be, he would be remiss to not have taken at least one opportunity to wear that particular outfit, “So…any inclinations as to where I should book a reservation?”
Sadie is happy to remain settled on Ben's back, purring happily as she listens to his heartbeat, "Good... And we've figured out how tall you should get," She reminds him gently, "We can keep and eye and make sure it's not a dangerous rate of growth."
Sadie tucks her head down slightly even as she smiles, trying to hide the sad edge of the expression. Who knows how much longer they would be able to date out and about in Mossgate. At least they still had out of town but still...
The flex certainly catches her attention away from the somewhat depressing potential future, her purr dropping deeper in response and her ears wiggle, "If we have to sacrifice the suit youto the good cause that is your arms then it will have fulfilled its purpose. But honestly, I'd like that Ben, I think you should pick where we go this time. Surprise me."
“More or less... 210 centimeters is the low end of an estimated range based on what I can recall,” he admits with some hesitancy. After what he experienced at the junkyard and his subsequent recovery, he is not certain how fast a dangerous rate would have to be in order to stress his body to injury without prior damage present.
Benjiro misses that sad edge to her smile as she hides behind him, but he certainly hears the drop of pitch in her purr. Cheeks warming, he chuckles softly and relaxes his arm down. Head turned to the side and laid flat, he shuffles a little to find a good position for his arms and starts to settle, the muscles in his back softening. Faintly nodding, he replies, “Then I’ll chart out the options and rank them. Who knows… Maybe we can work in two.” A pause, then he snerks softly, and jokes, “I suppose I could always remove the sleeves if that’s the only limitation.”
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Date: 2019-03-16 05:25 pm (UTC)"It'll be alright, we've already got ideas on the clothes front and at least it hasn't happened all at once like last time."
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Date: 2019-03-16 07:59 pm (UTC)Benjiro turns his head towards the side where she lies to speak, voice accompanied by a bitter note as he laments the perceived loss of an opportunity, “The rate is much slower, and while that much is in my favor...the timing couldn’t be worse. I was really wanting to ask you tonight...”
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Date: 2019-03-16 09:22 pm (UTC)"What did you want to ask me?" She continues to run her hands over him, "I'm sure you growing again won't change whatever it is you wanted to ask."
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Date: 2019-03-16 09:42 pm (UTC)“I um...” he starts only to sigh at the hesitation with eyes closing briefly. A second breath drawn slowly, Benjiro tries again as a hint of color rises across his cheekbones, “If I’m growing again, I’ll be too heavy soon enough... But I had wanted to ask if you would consider taking the next step with me. Physically. If um...if maybe you would want to have sex together.”
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Date: 2019-03-16 10:31 pm (UTC)Sadie freezes in complete and utter shock. Ben wanted to have sex with her. She never would have been able to predict that that was what her wanted to ask her, and for him to ask at this particular stage in their relationship too... Awe, and delight, and pride, and love. All the emotions feel like they are about to burst out from Sadie's chest and the only way she can possibly respond is by beaming at Ben.
"Oh Ben... I would love nothing more! Oh my god!" She She squeels happily, hiding her face into his shoulder still beaming away before looking up, smile fading slightly in confusion, "... What do you mean you'll be too heavy?"
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Date: 2019-03-16 11:07 pm (UTC)When she asks for him to explain what seems like an obvious obstacle, he starts to become a little confused himself, “It’s just that I’m heavy for my size as I am now, and if I’m on top of you after that compounds, it might hurt you...”
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Date: 2019-03-17 12:24 am (UTC)But she is also, maybe, a tiny bit amused that Ben, the smartest person she has ever met, has seemingly missed out on the most simple of solutions. Sadie bites her lip as her ears wiggle. She won't laugh at Ben, this was a serious moment of vulnerability from her boyfriend. And yet...
A giggle slips from Sadie's lips, followed by an inelegant snort as Sadie descends into giggles, face hidden in his shoulder,
"I can go on top!" Her muffled words are just about understandable as she laughs.
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Date: 2019-03-17 01:19 am (UTC)Then...she corrects his assumption in words he can barely make out.
Benjiro had never appreciated the simple gesture of a kiss as more than the pressing of faces together at the mouths. Yet, Sadie has shown him over their months as a couple precisely how intricate the intimate touch can truly be. His knowledge of things beyond kissing had been even more barren, so what little he knows of the interpersonal connection born from intercourse is barely more than a vague concept.
He stares as she laughs against his shoulder, then he remembers when she had been on top of him at the junkyard. A handful of seconds pass without breathing as his entire face alights with heat that stretches all the way over his ears and down his neck. Benjiro tucks his head as he shrinks where he lies and pulls a nearby pillow over his head.
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Date: 2019-03-17 11:50 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2019-03-17 08:38 pm (UTC)He’s simply too embarrassed to look at her, especially while the blush is still burning so hot in his face.
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Date: 2019-03-17 08:43 pm (UTC)"I like to think I'm fairly creative but I think even I'd struggle to come up with a way for us to have sex if you trap yourself in pillow prison for a year."
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Date: 2019-03-17 08:51 pm (UTC)“That might be for the best. The awkward sex education classes at school, movies, and national geographic shows were clearly inadequate.”
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Date: 2019-03-17 09:10 pm (UTC)"Well we can't let that stand," She purrs loudly as she kisses his neck once more, "I will be a far more thorough teacher than those I can assure you."
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Date: 2019-03-17 09:24 pm (UTC)Slowly, he drags the pillow off from over his head, face still beet red, but his expression less shamed and even a slight smile hiding behind his loosely crossed arms, “...perhaps rehabilitation is preferable to a sentencing for a first time offender.”
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Date: 2019-03-17 10:55 pm (UTC)"I suppose we could rehabilitate... Though it isn't as embarrassing as my first offence," Sadie blushes deep red at the remembered embarrassment, "Nayreen asked to use a rabbit when we were being intimate, and I just remember feeling horrified and telling her 'Fuck no, I don't want something with such big teeth down there,it might bite me!'. She was talking about the vibrator not the animal... I don't think she stopped laughing about that for a month."
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Date: 2019-03-17 11:35 pm (UTC)Head turning further to one side as he listens to Sadie share a blunder of her own, Benjiro shows his teeth as he lets out a breathy chuckle. It’s enough to shake Sadie on his back, quiet as it may be. Turning an arm to bring his hand down, he reaches to find her fingers with his to touch lightly, “I had no idea what it was called either until you told me... So that’s a less basic error, but still funny. ...thanks.”
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Date: 2019-03-19 10:23 pm (UTC)"You're always welcome, Ben, and I am so, so, so excited to share this experience with you," Grasping his hand, Sadie cards her free hand gently through his hair, "I will need to book up a doctor's appointment before we do anything though, I'll need to get my prescription sorted."
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Date: 2019-03-20 04:42 pm (UTC)“We can wait however long is best. I want it to be a night without any worry,” he replies. After a moment, a thoughtful look crosses his face, “ Two things... One, should I have a screen done? I haven’t been active, but I can’t promise my parents would have told me if I could be a carrier... And two, it might be wise if I track my changes. Maybe measure my height and my arms. That way, I can anticipate if my strength is increasing as well.” And thus protect Sadie by training as he grows.
Another instalment of me going "wtf was Sadie's gfs name???"
Date: 2019-03-24 05:34 pm (UTC)"Any nights with you are nights without worry, it's why I sleep so peacefully. I almost never dream about the memory I got with my claws any more."
Names of side characters can be hard to retain (especially the less important ones)
Date: 2019-03-27 02:06 pm (UTC)In regards to monitoring the effects of his recent Echoes, he shifts in a slight roll towards one side to position where he can see Sadie over his shoulder, “If you wouldn’t mind, it would be easier with your assistance. Maybe once a week? It might be more often than necessary given how long this much has taken, but having a regular data point collection would be a comfort.”
Then, Sadie expresses her confidence in him, and a slow smile draws over his lips as he feels humbled by her words. She feels safe with him. “大事にしたい...” he says softly, then speaks on, “You should be able to sleep peacefully. And I certainly sleep more when you’re beside me.” He has quite a habit of losing sleep in favor of thinking.
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Date: 2019-03-30 05:48 pm (UTC)Sadie snorts into his shoulder, "Well I'm glad that that's become an unexpected benefit of us sharing a bed. You know I thought you were some sort of insomniac when we first met because of how tired you always looked right?"
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Date: 2019-04-01 07:57 pm (UTC)Benjiro raises a brow at her insightful assessment, “That obvious, huh?” he says before he simply chuckles and crosses his arms under his head to get more comfortable. Doing so however brings one hand onto the upper portion of his other arm, and the feeling of it, makes him realize something else as he uncurls them almost immediately. Height may not be the primary factor to force him to change out his wardrobe in the coming months.
“I know that you discarded the receipts from Christmas but we might want to make use of that nice formal outfit you bought me sooner rather than later.” To demonstrate his point, he slides one arm out to the side and makes an effort to curl his arm, which makes his biceps noticeably more prominent than had been visible last month. Regrettable as the short lifespan of those clothes might prove to be, he would be remiss to not have taken at least one opportunity to wear that particular outfit, “So…any inclinations as to where I should book a reservation?”
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Date: 2019-04-07 07:38 pm (UTC)Sadie tucks her head down slightly even as she smiles, trying to hide the sad edge of the expression. Who knows how much longer they would be able to date out and about in Mossgate. At least they still had out of town but still...
The flex certainly catches her attention away from the somewhat depressing potential future, her purr dropping deeper in response and her ears wiggle, "If we have to sacrifice the suit youto the good cause that is your arms then it will have fulfilled its purpose. But honestly, I'd like that Ben, I think you should pick where we go this time. Surprise me."
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Date: 2019-04-08 03:25 pm (UTC)Benjiro misses that sad edge to her smile as she hides behind him, but he certainly hears the drop of pitch in her purr. Cheeks warming, he chuckles softly and relaxes his arm down. Head turned to the side and laid flat, he shuffles a little to find a good position for his arms and starts to settle, the muscles in his back softening. Faintly nodding, he replies, “Then I’ll chart out the options and rank them. Who knows… Maybe we can work in two.” A pause, then he snerks softly, and jokes, “I suppose I could always remove the sleeves if that’s the only limitation.”
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Date: 2019-04-10 12:19 pm (UTC)Sadie yawns, "Are you alright with me here, or do you want me to move before I fall asleep?"
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