Sadie doesn't hesitate to take Ben's hand, weaving their fingers together and taking another moment to examine just how different it was now.
"I definitely wanted to go that far Ben but this is why we should have talked about it beforehand, so that we can enjoy ourselves and not have to worry."
She takes a deep breath and squeezes his hand, "I want to be around you, and I want to cuddle and kiss, and...I know I want to be physically closer to you than that as well. And I know what my limits of that are. I..." She takes another deep breath. "...I had a girlfriend, back in London. We'd been together since just before my fifteenth birthday and, erm, we broke up like a week and a half before I moved to Mossgate."
Hand turning over at the tactile cues of her motion and fingers spreading, he curls his fingers down to hold her hand securely as they talk.
Her assurance that it had not been too much is met with a relieved exhale and loss of his worried expression. He never wanted to make her regret being with him.
Benjiro returns the squeeze of her hand, still somewhat cautious with his new size in how much pressure he applies, and he listens closely as she opens up to him. Well, he's not her first, but that doesn't really phase him. A soft hum precedes his reply, glancing down at their linked hands as he gathers the right words only to look to her directly when he does respond a couple seconds later, "...I haven't been in a relationship before," as if that wasn't obvious, tone alluding to a tinge of amusement, "so I'm not certain how to interact intimately. I think the more you can describe, the better I might understand logically. Everything we've done so far has been...incredible, and I would like to try more with you. I simply don't know what."
Sadie flushes, starting to purr quietly, proud that she had helped Ben have nothing but good experiences so far, and excited that he wanted to explore with her. "I know what I like and I promise that I will show you exactly what that entails. I really like it. Being that close to someone. It's something that I enjoy and there are very few places I don't like being touched."
She watches Ben squeeze her hand, and just marvels at how lucky she is to have someone so kind and caring as her best friend and boyfriend. "I want it to keep it feeling incredible for you too. I, er, I don't really have any experience with male anatomy." Her cheeks go more read as she says that, "So we can learn together. But most importantly, is there anywhere you know immediately that you don't want me to touch or want me to be careful with?"
The sound of her purr rising is encouraging to Benjiro, and he feels heartened that his inexperience will allow for a chance to let Sadie fully express her limits and desires rather than hinder the progression of their relationship. He can learn, as he has in how to kiss, and they could share in that pleasure together. All thanks to her patience.
When the mention of his anatomy comes up, his own face flares hot. He reaches up to rub the back of his neck with his other hand as he starts to get flustered when asked to outline his basic limits. Embarrassed, his voice is quieter when he answers beginning with a verbal pause, “えと…..” he then struggles in English, “I don’t think I’m ready to uh…I mean for any contact around my…” he does manage to say it if barely above a murmur, “around my genitals.”
Trying to recover, he shrugs his shoulders up with his blush deepening, “I-I don’t know other than that. I don’t know what else there is… Sorry.”
"Hey, don't apologise." Sadie tells Ben gently, reaching across to cup his face, thumbs gently brushing over her cheeks. "It's alright to be embarrassed, it's alright to not have everything figured out okay." She states, "It took me forever to figure out and we'll work together to discover what's right for you."
She gently leans in and coaxes Ben's face forward too, not for a kiss but just to rest their foreheads together, keeping that direct, sincere eye contact. "We'll avoid genital stuff for you until you feel you want. And if you never want to that's fine too."
His eyes close as she cups his face, bowing his head forward into the touch. The brush of her thumbs smooths away the tension in his expression, and he opens his eyes as she tells him it's okay to be unsure. That even she needed time to figure it out.
He has never felt any inclinations to be physical in that manner with anyone before Sadie. When he was younger, he had questioned why he didn't share attraction that other boys boasted. He had thought part of him was broken.
As Sadie leans closer, he relaxes his spine to slightly slouch forward and down to meet her, touching foreheads even as his blush lingers. He meets her eyes shyly, yet he is relaxing gradually. Still finding it hard to speak the way he'd like, he does manage to stammer something out, "...n-never? I thought that was... You'd be okay if we didn't?"
"Yes I would be okay." She states seriously, maintaining eye contact with Ben. She would never belittle him about this, or make jokes. This was too important. "There are things we can do if that is something you never want to do with me."
Sadie once again runs her thumbs gently across Ben's cheeks. "My pleasure will never be worth hurting you. Not ever in a million years. I want you to feel just as good as me and if there are places you want to avoid when we so then we avoid them, it's as simple and easy as that."
An alternative exists, one that Sadie deems acceptable. As she brushes his cheeks once again with her thumbs, his eyes become half-lidded as she makes the matter straightforward. He reaches his hands up to touch her forearms, fingertips slipping gently over the bone beneath to curl for a more solid contact.
It would not be so simple for anyone else. He knows this.
Considering himself, he speaks softly, voice without the same tautness as before as the start of a smile shows itself, “...thank you, Sadie. I think I need time is all.”
Sadie's entire body feels warm as she watches Ben start to smile. That. That expression there was the most important thing to her. And that Ben was able to smile despite the seriousness of their conversation...she couldn't be happier.
"Then I promise that you will have plenty of time." She gently places a peck on his cheek. "And thank you for being you." For being so open and accepting goes unsaid.
Her promise coupled with that kiss on his cheek uncovers his smile fully, blush persisting. His fingers slide up her forearms to her wrists, and he turns his face into one of her hands to return it to her palm before he lifts his head out and slides his hands into her own to hold.
Who someone loves or has physical interactions with should not invite judgement so long as consent and respect are present in the relationship. That Sadie cares for him now is all that matters to him.
"I can say the same thing to you. I hope you realize that."
“Sounds good to me,” he concurs. The cuddling will require a bit of adjustment for them both at his new size, but he has no doubt they’ll find the most comfortable positions by the first commercial break.
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"I definitely wanted to go that far Ben but this is why we should have talked about it beforehand, so that we can enjoy ourselves and not have to worry."
She takes a deep breath and squeezes his hand, "I want to be around you, and I want to cuddle and kiss, and...I know I want to be physically closer to you than that as well. And I know what my limits of that are. I..." She takes another deep breath. "...I had a girlfriend, back in London. We'd been together since just before my fifteenth birthday and, erm, we broke up like a week and a half before I moved to Mossgate."
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Her assurance that it had not been too much is met with a relieved exhale and loss of his worried expression. He never wanted to make her regret being with him.
Benjiro returns the squeeze of her hand, still somewhat cautious with his new size in how much pressure he applies, and he listens closely as she opens up to him. Well, he's not her first, but that doesn't really phase him. A soft hum precedes his reply, glancing down at their linked hands as he gathers the right words only to look to her directly when he does respond a couple seconds later, "...I haven't been in a relationship before," as if that wasn't obvious, tone alluding to a tinge of amusement, "so I'm not certain how to interact intimately. I think the more you can describe, the better I might understand logically. Everything we've done so far has been...incredible, and I would like to try more with you. I simply don't know what."
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She watches Ben squeeze her hand, and just marvels at how lucky she is to have someone so kind and caring as her best friend and boyfriend. "I want it to keep it feeling incredible for you too. I, er, I don't really have any experience with male anatomy." Her cheeks go more read as she says that, "So we can learn together. But most importantly, is there anywhere you know immediately that you don't want me to touch or want me to be careful with?"
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When the mention of his anatomy comes up, his own face flares hot. He reaches up to rub the back of his neck with his other hand as he starts to get flustered when asked to outline his basic limits. Embarrassed, his voice is quieter when he answers beginning with a verbal pause, “えと…..” he then struggles in English, “I don’t think I’m ready to uh…I mean for any contact around my…” he does manage to say it if barely above a murmur, “around my genitals.”
Trying to recover, he shrugs his shoulders up with his blush deepening, “I-I don’t know other than that. I don’t know what else there is… Sorry.”
Cw: sexy time talking
She gently leans in and coaxes Ben's face forward too, not for a kiss but just to rest their foreheads together, keeping that direct, sincere eye contact. "We'll avoid genital stuff for you until you feel you want. And if you never want to that's fine too."
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He has never felt any inclinations to be physical in that manner with anyone before Sadie. When he was younger, he had questioned why he didn't share attraction that other boys boasted. He had thought part of him was broken.
As Sadie leans closer, he relaxes his spine to slightly slouch forward and down to meet her, touching foreheads even as his blush lingers. He meets her eyes shyly, yet he is relaxing gradually. Still finding it hard to speak the way he'd like, he does manage to stammer something out, "...n-never? I thought that was... You'd be okay if we didn't?"
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Sadie once again runs her thumbs gently across Ben's cheeks. "My pleasure will never be worth hurting you. Not ever in a million years. I want you to feel just as good as me and if there are places you want to avoid when we so then we avoid them, it's as simple and easy as that."
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It would not be so simple for anyone else. He knows this.
Considering himself, he speaks softly, voice without the same tautness as before as the start of a smile shows itself, “...thank you, Sadie. I think I need time is all.”
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"Then I promise that you will have plenty of time." She gently places a peck on his cheek. "And thank you for being you." For being so open and accepting goes unsaid.
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Who someone loves or has physical interactions with should not invite judgement so long as consent and respect are present in the relationship. That Sadie cares for him now is all that matters to him.
"I can say the same thing to you. I hope you realize that."
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